So I've been trying to get over this I feel crappy about myself stage that I'm in. Whether it's trying on new clothes and doing different things with my clothes. And most recently going through pictures. I'm silly for not being happy with how I look. So I went back through pictures from after I had Grayson and that helped a little. : ) I think my biggest problem is because I am still nursing that is adding some extra pounds and once I am done I will be back at my pre pregnancy weight. I could also go and get my booty in the gym and that would help too. haha I've got to stop being so down on myself. My days are always better when I get myself ready in the morning, get the house clean, dishes in the dishwasher, dishwasher started, laundry going, laundry folded and put away, babies down for a nap and then I get to have a little me time. Luckily all 3 babies went down for a nap at the same time. crazy! Anyway so I went through and found these pictures.
This first one is NASTY!!! This was a few days after I had Grayson and we were headed home. I believe I left the hospital weighing around 138 from 153 when I got there.
This was the closest thing I had to the age Payton is right now...Gray was 3 months in this picture. If you look closely you can see my belly. yuck.
This was in April 2009 so Gray was about 4 months. I'm hiding behind Chris but I can tell my face looks full still.
This was in June 2009 Gray was about 5 months.
Finally a FULL YEAR after Grayson was born I was back to my normal weight of 124.
Here I am 5 1/2 weeks Pregnant with Payton.
I weight 154 at 40 weeks and 5 days.
Here I am about a week after Payton was born. I'm kind of hidden but not too bad.
Here I am with Chris on the 4th of July...Payton was about a month and a half old. I was weighing about 127.
This is me today...Right about 125. Haven't really moved from that in the last couple months. BLAH. But I feel good about that because I wasn't this far weight wise after I had Grayson.
I definitely still want to get to the gym and tone/tighten some things up. haha
I just like this picture because you can see my face doesn't look swollen or chubby like it did in the picture from after I had Grayson.
I've got to stop whining and just be happy with how I am. I can always work to improve things but some people have it worse than I do. That doesn't mean I don't get to have a downer day. hahaha Everybody deserves some of those. : )
Scarlet,
ReplyDeleteI feel bad that you are feeling so bad about yourself. I understand what it is like to have a downer day though especially post pregnancy. But, I just want you to know that I would give anything to look like you do right now. I think that you look amazing and you have like since she was born! I am sure and pretty much positive that I am not the only one that thinks you look great and would love to look like you. You always have the cutest clothes and I think your style is great! :) I'm not sure how much that really means to you but...oh well! haha
Scarlet,
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that you feel down! but I wanted to let you know that I always have and always will find you to be a beautiful person inside and out! Body image is a tough and tricky thing, but you can fight through this! Talking about it really helps and having a husband that always reminds you how beautiful you are is nice too and I know you do! :)