37 Weeks

Tired

Cranky

Annoyed

Tired

Cranky

In PAIN

exhausted

Blah Blah Blah

I don't know what the deal is this week. Those are all the things I'm feeling right now and none of them are very nice. Last week was great and very productive. I think all these negative feelings started when I went in for a last minute appt due to some pain I was having. I get in there...sure enough my second UTI in 4 weeks. GRRR. Not sure if I've ever been in so much pain...well I guess after having a C-section this isn't much but sheeesh it's miserable. So they prescribed me an antibiotic and I got started...the pain seemed to get worse. I tried to fight through it thinking I hadn't been on the medicine long enough for it to do it's job. Sunday came around and I seemed to be feeling better. Until about noon when I went to the bathroom and the pain was back. I could barely sit through sacrament meeting without being in tears from just being so uncomfortable on top of the pain. So I called the on-call midwife who had me talk to the on-call doctor who had seen me on Friday. He thought it was weird but the culture hadn't come back from their lab so he just prescribed me another medicine. Didn't sleep that well but in the morning I was feeling better but couldn't jynx it because this same thing had happened on Sunday. 4 o'clock comes around and I'm in extreme pain again barely able to handle going to the bathroom. So I called the on-call midwife come 6 and tried explaining to her that I was taking lots of antibiotics am 37 weeks pregnant (meaning already uncomfortable) and nothing was working. She told me to be taking BOTH antibiotics at the same time until I was out and then she prescribed me another med that's supposed to numb things and take care of the pain. So that night I took all those pills (feeling like a druggy now) and took some tylenol to try and fight the pain. I woke up this morning feeling pretty good but still didn't sleep well. So far so good.

I spent my morning making pancakes, then doing all the dishes (even though I had just done a huge load last night) so my back aches and my feet hurt, I went in and cleaned the bathroom, I went in and made our bed and put all clothes away (chris likes to leave stuff out : ) ) After that was all done I came and just laid here on the couch listening to Gray making all sorts of engine noises playing with his cars. By 11 I was ready to hop in the shower (no kids to babysit anymore) At this point Chris was already off studying for the DAT and working on his application. I took a nice long hot shower---YES! This is where the other feelings come from...I start to fix my hair. I'm so sick of my hair, the length, the style, the color. I want something new. Blah. So I try going for less poofy, I feel gross, I go for a different part...down the middle...not too shabby...I work with it parted down the middle and keep messing with it...I decide to put on my make up and give my hair a break. Finish putting on my make up and walk out. It's 1 o'clock and we put Gray down for a nap. I go back into the bathroom...I'm hating my hair. I try to give my face some color that doesn't do it. SO i'm back to my normal part have my bangs pulled to the side and it's not very columized but I still don't like it. I tell myself "whatever I will go make a blog post and take a nap on the couch so who cares" 

I'm hungry for lunch but not really. Chris offers to make me a hot dog since we have several left over from weekend activities. I don't want a hot dog...instead I say to myself I'm tired of not eating what I want for today so I grab some chips and a small fun size snickers bar. That's what I ate. No I'm not satisfied but it will do for now.

I feel large and hate all my clothes, I struggle to bend over, sit down, pull my legs up to my chest when putting on pants, socks or shoes. GRRRR. I really need to stop complaining. Some people have it worse than I do. So I'm scanning through blogs and it seems to be a few people have been feeling the same way who are also pregnant. I found this on my cousin's blog who is 10 weeks behind me. I really enjoyed it and wanted to share. IT made me feel better. 

     

 

That's awesome.. I need to give time more time. I control my happiness. I need to stop worrying about what others think of me and just be me. Anyway I really appreciated that. Things go up and down for everybody. Financially, physically, mentally, spiritually. I'm just doing my best.  

 

37 Weeks. Check up on Thursday...hoping I am more than 60% effaced but who knows! 

 

 Here we are Sunday at Jennie's house with Virgin strawberry Daquiri's and homemade bread. DELICIOUS! Then the next photo is my 37 week shot...trying to be comfortable with my UTI and large belly wearing sweatpants and a crappy shirt.

This was a picture from our weekend. On saturday we got a bunch of couples together with Ryan and Jessi and went out for a bonfire and roasted hotdogs. Ryan heated up some chilli and Tyler made stuffed chocolate bananas and cooked them in the fire. I didn't try it but it seemed interesting. We had a great time...it was perfect weather to sit in front of the fire...as you can see we are in big winter coats. Gray loved running around outside of all the chairs throwing stuff in the fire eating yummy food and playing with Mymy. We will be doing it again...we have TOO many hot dogs left over. Chris and Grayson look so handsome. Love my boys. 

I will have a small update after my appointment on Thursday! Cross your fingers : )